My husband and i had just started talking about ttc when we found out we were pregnant! Best news ever. But something felt off. I hadn't had a period since December. i tested in January and both were negative. Tested again in February just for the hell of it and blazing positive!! SCORE! Then i started spotting a week later. The same day the doctor confirmed it. figured spotting was normal so we scheduled our ultrasound. the spotting turned to period like bleeding. we went to our ultrasound and everything looked great. The day after our ultrasound i was in horrible pain. cramping and bleeding, then i saw the first blood clot and immediately knew, this baby wasn't ours to keep. received the call from the doctors office telling us we were 6 weeks pregnant, with tears running down my face i thanked them and told them i was sure i was having a miscarriage. after 2 blood tests we confirmed what we already knew. this has been the most physical and emotional pain I've been in, in quite awhile. the doctor said not to try to conceive for at least 2 cycles so instead of testing ovulation for when to do the baby dance, we're going to test for when NOT to baby dance. i feel defeated but thankful that it happened at 6 weeks and not 6 months.

To all the women out there that have felt this pain, i see you, i feel you, i am you.