No matter what God you pray to send well wishes my way..

I’m about to vent. Sorry in advance!

I know I shouldn’t be sad, so many women struggle TTC but my emotions are still valid just like yours. My husbands birthday is today & all I wanted to do was surprise him with a baby today. We’ve planned this day for 3 years.. Well...

As you can tell it’s not going to happen today.

I’m only sad because this is something we’ve planned for years! Today was suppose to be the day. But we all know it doesn’t work that way. God has other plans for us.

We’ve only been TTC for two months.. (I know it takes time! Stop rolling your eyes.)

But I just always had a plan. I’m a planner, it keeps me sane.

I was on long term BC. Well since I got it the plan was supposed to be I take it out in December & then I’ll be pregnant by the end February. (I was told fertility could return instantly so that’s what I hope for.) boy was I wrong. I haven’t had AF since it was removed. I had bright red blood when I peed Sunday. So I hoped AF was returning so at least I could start tracking my ovulation & go from there. It’s been 48hrs & I haven’t even spotted since that one time. I’ve had symptoms... like nausea (no vomit), dizziness, acne, swollen & veiny boobs, crazy amount of fatigue, being emotional, vivid dreams, bloating & cramps from time to time... which I’ll just assume are phantom symptoms now. I swore the fact that my boobs began to get sore was the final sign. NOPE.

I’ve been up all night. Holding my pee & patiently waiting.. I knew I’d be disappointed (I took a test Friday) but it just hurts. I’ve had my pregnancy announcement to my husband hidden in the closet since September.

Send baby dust our way.

My bff got pregnant on accident.. my first love just announced he got his gf pregnant.. my old coworker just announced her pregnancy. IM HAPPY FOR THEM ALL, BUT WHEN WILL IT BE US?

I spoke to my mother & she said with me (her first pregnancy) she got 4 shots to get her period. All pregnancy tests were negative. But since she was irregular (which I was before BC) she didn’t think anything of it. Then she went in for an ultrasound because her period never got here. That’s when she found out she was 3 months along. How likely is that to happen to me? SLIM TO NONE. She just got my hopes up & made me crazy.

If you stuck around this long, you’re great. Thank you.

I just needed to let my emotions out before my husband woke up because today is his day & im not going to ruin it by being a cry baby.