Took a test first thing at 6 am this morning and guess what I got.... a BFN. I will start my period tomorrow. I have been so excited for the past 2 weeks to test since this is my first time ttc. Some people make it look sooo easy to conceive & it’s not. I’m still young - 22. But I face the fears of what if? What if it takes me years to conceive and I have a lot of issues and visits to the doctor? What if I can’t have a baby and that’s why I need to start now? There are bad moms out there in this world and moms who abort their babies while I would do anything to have my first baby. I would be such a good mommy. I don’t know why I’m taking this so hard but I am. I prayed & asked God to please let me have a baby. I know there are women who have been trying for years & years and I only have been for a month.... I know it sounds silly to be upset over the first month, but it still hurts to be out this month.