Hello all, I am writing this because I feel you guys might understand what I'm going through. I need a outlet or else I will go crazy.

My husband and I have been trying to have baby since July2018 but no success. I have PCOS and put on weight last year so killing myself in gym and eating healthy.

For past 8months I have been praying hard for the test to turn positive. That is all I have been thinking and talking about.

This month is different, I am not giving up but I have decided to let go. I am not going to think about baby or my symptoms. If it is mine it will come to me. I will keep eating healthy and working out because that's the right thing to do but not going to be desperate and scared.

Wish me luck!!!