Giving up

I have 2 different apps. One says I start tomorrow and one says I’m 3 days late today. I already know I’m probably out this month considering all I’ve gotten (including this morning) was a BFN. So either I need to see two lines or a + on a test or AF needs to show her ugly face and get it over with so we can try again next month. 🙁 anyone else feel the same way??