I've been depressed as long as I can remember. And anxious since ar least early middle school. On paper I have major depression, general anxiety, and PTSD. I've been on paxil the last 9 months or so. It's been pretty great, I'm so much happier. But now I'm trying to concieve and have changed medication due to the risk of heart defects. Regardless, my doctor wants me to stop when I get my positive test and hold off on any pysch medication until 13 weeks. She was very adamant about this and I trust her.

I'm really worried though. Just missing one pill can throw me back into my depression and anxiety. I feel like I have to choose between having another baby and being happy.

I guess I'm just venting. I felt okay when I spoke with my doctor. But as soon as I filled my Rx, the anxiety set in.