I’ve gotten my own apartment, work 40 hours a week, have straight As in school and I’m predicted to graduate almost 2 years early, I have all my sons stuff, I’ve bought all the diapers I’d need, everything id need really (I love sales and second hand stuff) and I still feel guilty for being a teen mom. I feel guilty I’m so young and he’ll need to grow up with me. I feel guilty I don’t know if me and his father will work out. I feel guilty that he won’t be able to have new toys or clothes or new anything until I’m done with my technical degree (I’m gonna be a ultrasound tech) in 3-4 or so years. I feel really fucking guilty because I can’t afford professional new born pictures and we will never get these moments where he’s so young back. I feel guilty other moms look at us weird and stare. I feel guilty no one knows how much I cry at night worrying about him and the future. All I want is for him to succeed and I know for that I have to succeed. I love my son more than anything in the whole world and I’m grateful god has blessed me with him, but I feel guilty because I feel like he deserves better than me.