I am so tired of feeling like I’m nothing to my husband. We been together for 14 years married 7 years this March. I’m tired of begging for love if he really loved me he would show it. I’m tired of the same excuses I was raise like that. I was raise in a physically an mentally abused environment that doesn’t mean I’m gonna do the same thing to my family. I learned from my parents mistake not saying that I’m perfect because I’m far from that. He works a lot and when he gets home all he does is play video games an drink. When spring hits, his days off he is fishing with his buddies. We have 5 kids in my last one on the way. I have sacrificed so much for him(not saying he hasn’t) why can’t he at least be like u know I haven’t seen my wife in a while I’m gonna actually do something with her. I just feel like I was born to never be loved by no one. My stepdad used to tell me that I was nothing and didn’t matter n my husband makes me feel the same way. I’m so tired of being married but feeling so lonely. Sorry everyone please don’t feel bad for me I deserve everything that’s happening to me because I’m allowing it. I just needed to get part of it of my chest.