I used to pray a lot but now less and less but I still feel the same a when I did pray a lot. My grandma has told me that god speaks to her and gives her signs and feelings and knowing and that she’s seen angels but I havnt had any of that. I wish god would speak to me. When I pray I wish I knew that my prayers were being heard. Is their a reason why they wouldn’t be. I wish I knew fir sure my sims are being forgiven. How do I know? I feel like sense I don’t know for sure and have fount that they are not being heard or forgiven. When I read some bible verses or stuff like that I get anxiety when I know I should have the opposite feelings. Like the wicked doesn’t get rest. It’s 1 in the morning and I can’t sleep it’s so hard to sleep every day. What even makes you wicked. I don’t want to be wicked. I’m just scared I’m not my minds not pure or something like that and I’ll go to hell. That’s my biggest fear,,going to hell. I feel like I should feel god or Jesus or hear him talk or something. Ifk maybe I’m not holy enough. When you pray to be forgiven of your sins do you feel refreshed and better? I was baptized when I was young but I don’t know if I felt anything but the cold water. Just so many unanswered questions and confusion I read so many bible vereses that I just don’t understand. And stuff like that ufk maybe I just have anxiety and I overthink stuff like this.