My dream has ended

Brandy

The dream of having a family has come to an end. Since 2016 I have went under 2 unsuccessful leep procedures and hysteroscopy in December 2018. My cycles are still irregular, heavy, watery and clotting. I've been on northindrone since 2 weeks before my hysteroscopy is December 2018. On December 21, 2018 was the day of the hysteroscopy. From December 5th to January 24th I had high hope that something finally worked. On January 25th I started spotting, spotted till January 29th. The morning of January 30th I woke up at 4am to having to change my sheets and clothes. I've been bleeding heavy since. I've went through 3 bags of 20 count pad and 2 bags of 16 count pads. I'm changing them every 15 to 30 minutes depending on how much movement I do. My only option left is a complete hysterectomy. I'm so torn and heartbroken.