If you’ve read my previous post about how my daughter has been extra clingy towards me lately, then you may understand this post a little better. So I just dropped my daughter off at school, and she really didn’t want to go today. She has music class today, and she really doesn’t like it. She loves to sing, but she said they don’t really sing in that class. I guess they just learn about instruments and music notes or something.

Anyways, she’s been not wanting to go to school everyday recently, because she said she wants me. Even when I first back out of the driveway to take her to school she’ll say, “Awe man. I’m not at home.” lol. She even went as far as to tell her teacher she has diarrhea when she really doesn’t, but they take her word for it and say that I have to come pick her up, because it’s school policy that kids can’t go to school with diarrhea, so she makes me look bad and like I don’t care about the other kids’ health and well being which of course I do. She did this twice. Don’t worry though, her and I had a nice long talk about it, and she won’t be saying she has diarrhea anymore unless she really does. But I have to say, I’m pretty impressed by her wit. She’s 51/2 and in Kindergarten.

So I dropped her off at school today, and of course the whole morning while she was getting ready and the whole car ride to school she was saying she didn’t want to go to school. I just keep reassuring her that every kid has to go to school even if they don’t want to, not just her. That’s the rules/law and that mommy and daddy will get in trouble if she doesn’t go to school.

We pull up by the school and I give her lots of hugs and kisses and tell her I love her. She starts to wine and nearly cries saying she doesn’t want to go to school. She was full on crying when I dropped her off yesterday. This time she didn’t cry that bad, but a teacher opened the car door for her to get out and she says to her so sadly, “I don’t want to go to school.” Then she proceeds to walk to the door into the school.

Omg the look on her face killed me, and and Idk if it’s from pregnancy hormones or because it was raining this morning or what, but I lost it after I drove off. I was really upset, and I wasn’t even as upset yesterday when she was hysterically crying walking into school. I was still sad though of course, but today I don’t know what came over me. I cried in the car and when I got home. Ugh, I just feel so bad that I can’t comfort her, and I miss her so much!

Oh and when I dropped her off this morning, she didn’t even turn to look at me and blow me two kisses, and she always does that everyday without fail. Gosh it makes me so emotional just thinking about it, and especially thinking about the miserable, heart-broken look on her face as she walked away😢

I just wanted to turn the car around and pick her right back up. I don’t know how much more I can take of this. It ruins my whole day, and makes me feel so bad and so sad. Sorry for the long post. I just really needed to vent. If you’ve read this far, thank you♥️