I’m so fat:(

I’m 5’7 225 pounds and feel like a whale. I feel so ugly and In return I eat because I’m upset. I’m on metformin and famara and those make me emotional too. Idk I just need to be lifted up. My arms and gut is my biggest insecurities they are so so big. My husband says he loves me and thinks I’m so sexy but I don’t feel it. Anyone feel this way?:( we have been trying for a year and a half with no luck. I feel like I’m scared to get pregnant because I’m gonna get even bigger but my want for a baby and to start a family out weighs that fear. I just am really struggling right now with myself and I thought I would come here to vent. Sorry ladies