Hurting in many ways I can't explain 🤦🏽‍♀️ it's so hard and I'm so tired of hearing "stop trying it'll happen" "stop thinking about it so much" "God will give you a baby when he ready" and I'm like just so over it and bad thing is I'm trying to hide it from my husband because I know it kills him probably a little bit more than me since he older and just found out the only kid that we could claim and that we have been raising isn't his so now we have no kids ugh so it's just like I'm done I'm tired of the BFN I'm tired of all the mind symptoms every month of feeling something different and thinking "oh this is finally my month" just for AF to show her ugly ass face I'm done I'm done I'm done !!!!!