Today I found out i am pregnant..

Might have a threated miscarriage because I spotted once 5 days ago...

today I choose to be strong..

today I choose to cry, to fear, to let my pain come n let it out..

All the doubt, all the pointing to my last miss miscarriage.. all the signs I had last.. i am so afraid of losing you.. I am afraid .. 2 years ago I again.. exactly around the same day I found out I had lost you long ago.. I will go in.. and once again with the hope... 2 years and I am again having to wonder if I will get to see you..

8 weeks I passed you a month after before my operation.. with your tiny body.. your tiny beautiful black eyes.. beautiful arms.. your tiny tail..

I might get to see you again two years later n I am pregnant around the time u stopped wronging..

I might loose you again.. but I am here and you are mine.. I love you .. I love you too much.. I am strong but that doesn’t mean i will not cry..

I will cry.. I will scream.. but I am here and I won’t loose hope for you to get to stay..

I will have faith.. rainbow baby please stay.. 🌈😭