Unfortunately I lost my 2 baby girls due to incompetent cervix . One at 16 weeks and the other at 18 weeks . They were the worst experiences I’ve been through . First time I was angry, at everyone specially at God . Like why would you take such great happiness and blessing from me . I hated everyone’s sympathy. I laid in bed for days . Cried all day and night. Didn’t eat . Staring at all the gifts and diapers I had received at my gender reveal . 3 months later I found out I was expecting again . And I was beyond happy again . I felt alive again . Everything was going great . I was getting monitored every two weeks . Then one night I went out to celebrate my birthday and I felt pressure like I needed to poop. So I’m in and out the bathroom but the pressure is getting worse . I start shivering and finding myself breathing in and out to try to release the pain I’m going through . I’m trying to act tough because it was my birthday dinner and i had no idea I was having contractions . Then tears just start rolling down my cheeks. My husband turns around and says I’m pale and he’s taking me to the hospital . Took us about 10 mins to get there . As soon as I go in they rush me to get an ultrasound and I feel to urge to push . And my baby is laying there next to my leg 😭 I had to get a d&c and I was bleeding to much my hemoglobin levels went down to a 4. After two blood transfusions I laid there heart broken once again without my baby . But this time was different. I wasn’t mad . I trusted God . I didn’t understand his plans but I trusted him with everything I had . It was hard no doubt . But praying helped me and never loosing faith gave me hope. We are all strong woman. I am not ttc for the past 8 months with no luck but I know Gods timing is perfect . And until then I will enjoy life and keep praying for health and happiness . My heart is with every single one of you and remember to never ever loose faith . ❤️