I’ve struggled with anxiety, panic disorder, and depression for most of my life. This past 2 years is the most emotionally stable I have been ever (although still having low downs every now and again).

But ever since my pregnancy I’ve been feeling depressed again. I’m happy I’m pregnant and going to have a baby. It’s all I’ve ever wanted since before I could remember.

But I can’t stop feeling down and upset and like I’m losing interest in everything and not wanting to get out of bed. I’m finding it hard to take care of myself and my home.

I don’t work. I’m a student but I don’t have a huge work load. My husband got a second job once we found out I was pregnant. And I’m so grateful to him for taking care of me. But I find myself being bitter towards him because he goes and gets drinks with the other servers from his restaurant after work. Or he goes and hangs out at the local pub we used to always spend time at. And I can’t go because they smoke there.

He can tell I’m upset and it makes him feel like I don’t appreciate him working extra. I haven’t been working since November (before I got pregnant). And he’s been really supportive. And I feel like a terrible person because I can’t seem to give him space to unwind after working so much.

And this just makes me more depressed but I can’t seem to stop myself from making him feel bad.

I don’t know what to do. I want to be happy during my pregnancy. I want to be as supportive of my husband as he is for me. I want to take care of myself so I can have a healthy baby. But I can’t seem to do anything right.