me and my boyfriend have been dating for over a year, i’m 16 (about to be 17 next week) and he’s 18.

he’s soon going into the military this summer, and i’ll be a senior in high school this fall.

back in july 2018, we started fighting more often and the honeymoon stage went away from our relationship. ever since then, i’ve had to repetitively apologize for unnecessary things, i’ve felt guilty and ashamed of my emotions and feelings, i’ve barely hung out with my friends bc i he gets upset or moody when i’m with them, and so much more

i’m really tired of crying every night over this relationship. i want to leave because i know this isn’t healthy. but i said i love you to him and he wants to marry me.

what do i do??