I hate him

He got caught betraying my trust and having intimate conversations with this girl I told him was no good that he led me to believe was not a big deal. Trying to fix this, I’m pregnant with his baby and wouldn’t be able to move back in with my mom.

I feel so isolated and destroyed and I find myself genuinely jealous of how perfectly fine he is after doing this to me. I hate the job opportunities he’s getting and all the good things that are happening to him, I’m jealous because I can’t even find the time to go outside anymore and cry every second of the day. What’s wrong with me?