It was just last Wednesday @ 6 in the morning when I woke up to use the restroom when I felt something in between my V.. I thought it wsnt as serious because I did some online search maybe thinking it could be veins popping out?,so went back to sleep. Then I woke up at 9 am, because I had severe cramps, I got up and once i did water started to come out it wouldnt stop, I was scared, in shock& crying. My husband screamed and tried to stop the water from coming out but no luck.. I went in to the hospital and the dr came in with a long face, she said " Im sorry your babies chances of survival are one in a million" I broke into pieces my whole world came down on me. All my plans all the kicking that started at 10 weeks it was too much for me to even think my baby isnt going to make it , I prayed my husband prayed we had hopes that they can try and get fluid back in but they couldnt. I was kicked out of the hospital since they had gave me two

options one keep me in observation the second was to terminate and aince i had chosen to to keep my baby they had no choice but to tell me to go home , I went home crying and decided to give another hospital a try.. I went in with hope that my baby was still alive, by that time my skin started getting a rash I was itchy everywhere, and suddenyl im called to see a dr , again.. long face, they told me the baby had no chance of survival and I would have to terminate the pregnancy.. I cried like never before. I wanted my baby and for them to tell me so bluntly that he was going to die either way just killed me. So I decided to terminate my pregnancy, it was the most painful situation I have gone through my whole life , physical pain emotional pain & mental pain all at once, my uterus ached and the very next morning i start to milk.. I was not able to even keep my baby nor hold him and that was the hardest part.. I pray that every mother going through this finds a way out, I pray that every mother going through this without a partners support makes it out even stronger than ever, I loved my unborn baby& will love him always..