I have really bad anxiety. I’m only a teenager. I’ve cut and tried to kill myself because people bully me everyday at school and my parents are abusive. I’m so tired of living like this. I recently went to the doctor with symptoms of an earache, really bad headaches,dizziness, and nausea. I play tennis for an hour and a half after school everyday. When I went to the doctor, she set me up for allergy tests because get hives whenever I pet my dogs. She said that the headaches, earaches, nausea, and dizziness are all symptoms of anxiety. She put me on an anxiety medicine that has helped some. I haven’t been able to take it for a few days because I can’t take it for a week. I can’t take anything with antihistamine or allergy related for a week before my allergy tests. So, as I said before, I play tennis. I have to juggle that, school, and 4-5 hours of homework a night. Yesterday, I told my dad that I didn’t want to play tennis because I have a lot of homework. (I was also mentally unstable) and he and my gramma kept telling me that I need to go I can just stay up late. I haven’t been sleeping well lately because my anxiety keeps me up when I don’t take my meds. So I was tired, mentally unstable, and had 6 hours of homework. On top of that, I’m constantly bullied at school and I can’t trust anybody. When the doc said I need therapy, my dad looked at me in disappointment. I don’t know what I should do. I really just want to end my life. I’m so tired if being treated like a piece of shit. I’ve lived like this for as long as I can remember. I always go to school wearing a jacket and pants so that nobody can see the cuts on my wrists or the bruises on my legs. I’m so tired of living like this. I don’t know what I should do anymore. I’m mentally not ok. The thing is that nobody ever cares. If somebody sees me crying they just look at me and walk off. Nobody has ever cared. The people that once cared walked out on me. I really wish that I had just pulled the trigger.

Please comment what I should do

Sorry this is so long