My husband and I lost our son at 16 weeks on December 11th, 2018. That was my 1st pregnancy ever. Then social media was flooded with the Virgin Mary and Baby Jesus for the next 2 weeks which made me so mad at God.

It was so confusing, God was the only one who I felt comfort from, but at the same time pregnant Mary and baby Jesus made me feel sad.

Then I had to deal with everyone announcing their pregnancies on social media at Christmas, and then at New Years, and then on Valentine’s Day. Then I had a chemical pregnancy.

My husband (who has never had social media) said, “just quit Facebook (Easier said then done). If it’s giving you that much anxiety and making you so sad, just quit. Just try it for a week.”

So I finally decided to quit on Feb 17th. And it has literally been the greatest experience ever. Today I thought, oh I can go look at it again. And my cousins wife who found out she was pregnant 2 months before we lost our son in December just posted today, “finally got to feel the baby move today.”

And nope, I’m all sad again. Comparing myself to others and not measuring up as a wife and a member of society. So I’m done. I know I’m happier without it, and if you’re really my friend you’ll reach out to me the old fashioned way.

I think I’ll keep it and maybe post about how I’m not going to use it really at all. Maybe to post a life update every once in a while, but (I feel bad saying this) I don’t want to see what everyone else is doing. It just makes me compare myself to them and want what they have. And I don’t want to do that, because when I’m not doing it I’m happy and completely satisfied with my life.

Anyone else feel like this?