him & me have split up over pregnancy RANT!

Tasha • Rylee James 02.05.12 born without a cry 36wks 5 days 💙 Finally got my BFP 24.02.19 * Lincoln * 🌈 14.10.19 🥇💛💰 BFP 16.08.22

I've been seeing this guy a while , i was on the contraceptive pill and we were careless at times. Anyway he wanted me to get an abortion which i just couldnt do. I have PCOS and fibroids and was told chances of conceiving naturally were slim. I had a son 7 years ago who was stillborn and although he says he understands.. he's left me because at 37 with no kids , he still isn't ready. He has pretty much wants to be with me without the baby. I'm due October 24th. This may be a pointless post but i needed to rant.. I'm devastated.. he said the " thought of me moving on for even a second destroyed him " Has changed his mind 3 times now about being involved. Do i leave that door open for him? Do i just get on with it and hope he changes his mind? Surely if he isn't ready at 37 then he probably wont ever be..? I'm just worried that my child will miss out on another family. He is a good man even if he doesn't seem like it. Abortion is not an option though. I don't even know what I'm asking.. but i really am at a loss.. just didn't want my child growing up fatherless like i did..