I just wanted to feel like I'm not alone and someone may be in a similar situation as me?

Im 26 years old and I started seeing a guy in mid october, from the beginning things we're okay but not the greatest. I started to feel like a part time girlfriend or booty call and I pointed it out to the guy. So he made more an effort to take initiative to see me. Now fast forward to Christmas he went home for two weeks and when he came back we hit it off again. I still felt like I was making the plans and pushing for days to just see him so I decided to back off and let him come to me. He went to friend's birthday parties without ever inviting me and did other things to only tell me days after.

Then comes the beginning of February and I've noticed my period is late, I thought it was mainly stress because of the relationship I was in I was merely being used as a part time gf. After another week went by where I was breaking down crying every other day. Finally I talked to my main support my mother she is a nurse and she was extremely concerned I was falling back into a depression.

To ease my mind she took me to the grocery store got a pregnancy test with me and I took it the next morning. Seems it was positive! At first I was happy I always wanted kids! Then reality set in of what kind of relationship I was in and who the father was.

After a dr appt three days later I was still debating to keep or to abort, so I decided to tell the contributor is what I call him. He was first upset asking if I was on b/c I told him no and it's a discussion I usually have before I have relations with a man. He then proceeded to berate me and told me we would talk on the Monday he had to absorb the information.

That Monday he used the excuses that our relationship isn't ready, that our finances weren't ready and bleh bleh bleh. Then told me I had lied to him and essentially baby trapped him by not telling him about b/c.... this is a man whom forgot his birthday a day before. I gave him my reasonings for wanting to keep baby but he shot them all down pretty much saying they were all stupid and I needed to get an abortion. After that I kept my distance so I could make a decision right for me, and everytime I though if aborting it went against everything I believe and wanted and would spiral down into thinking we'll maybe I should end.it for both of us and would start crying and get depressed.

A week of doing that and then doing the opposite if imagining a little face that looks like mine and a greater purpose then just my life I couldnt.

I was going to wait to tell him the choice I made but then I went to the ER to find out I had a subchrionic bleed and I saw that little skittle and I can't let it go. I told him my answer and he was upset and stopped talking to me for days and I had become accustomed to the idea I'm doing it on my own considering he said his options were to disappear, pay for 18yrs of his life for a child he didn't want or to take custody of the baby.

When he made the decision he met me at a coffee shop but didn't want anyone eves dropping so talked in his car he first was making it so it was my choice if baby had a dad. I told him no that it was his choice that there are two people that made the baby. He said he wants to be apart of babies life and provide for it, if I needed anything then to ask. But because I broke his trust so much that he couldn't be with me and try and get to know me more since we only dated 5 months and he had no clue who I am and I don't have any faith in him now.

I'm strong and 9 weeks along and Im determined to do right by me and the baby. He knows when the next appt are i told him I have rides but if he wanted to show up he could. But I'm also thinking that I'm not adding his name on a birth certificate till he can prove to be a good father. And baby will have my last name, is that wrong if me?