So, recently I have made a new friend. We both graduate in December and have plans to move afterward. I currently live with my boyfriend and she mentioned how she wants to move closer to campus so she doesn’t have to drive so far to get to campus. Once the lease is up at my current place my boyfriend and I plan on moving into a cheaper place with his lifelong friend for 6 months because we all have plans to move to Texas when I graduate in December. Well when my friend said she wanted to move closer but she didn’t want to buy a house and turn around and sell it in December, so I proposed to my boyfriend that maybe she can live with us in those 6 months because she’s my friend and it can make rent cheaper for all of us so we can all save money, which is what we’re all trying to do.

Tbh, the night before yesterday and yesterday I have noticed he hasn’t been as energetic and has had his serious face on and when I mentioned that yesterday he said he was thinking. I didn’t ask what he was thinking about, but I plan to ask what’s been on his mind lately later tonight when we’re both off of work. I would ask sooner but I’m about to go to work soon and when I get home he’ll be leaving for work. And it kind of seems like he’s been distant from me too. Sometimes this happens because he does suffer from depression, but this feels like it’s not depression and there is no way to really know if it is or not.

Before I went to bed last night he told me I should just move in with my friend and he just live with his friend. He said I should move in with my friend and not him because “I need to make more friends.” FYI I already struggle to make friends. But I feel like that’s not a good reason to not continue living with him because even though I struggle to make friends I can still make friends while living with him, but he just thinks I won’t. If I did decide to move with my friend and he moves with his I feel like it’ll just drift us apart instead of bringing us together and becoming closer together is something we’ve been working on. By him saying what he said it makes me feel like he doesn’t want to live together and maybe having second thoughts on us, but idk. I would rather live with him and go out with a friend or two and then come back home to him cause nothing feels more like home than him.

What do you guys think?