Hi. Im 20 years old and my life in is complete shambles and I need someone out there to tell me its Ok and God has me. Me and my mom never has a good relationship. I always felt like she loved and cared for my sister more than me. Were always arguing about money. She started making me and my sister pay her as she called “contributions”(we live in a 2 bedroom 1 bath duplex) 3 people. U do the math. So its a bit small and uncomfortable. I only work a small job and I’m also trying to goto college, online classes, sometime last month I let my mom borrow $125 for a bill. (All of my check) She promised she’d pay it back when she got her taxes. That she claims me and my sister own. Has she? No. Instead she bashed my heart inside pieces for asking if she was going to repay me however $100 was spend of mac makeup for her and she almost spend $150 worth of expensive perfume. Isn’t that lovely? To top everything off she threatens to KICK ME OUT if I don’t pay her money out of my check EACH time I get paid. $50 every two weeks. I only get paid $100 sometimes $140. I even offered to just pay for household items like (tissue,paper towels, cleaning products whatever the house needs) she DENIED. She wants the money. I have no car. Despite my situation I’ve been saving. Im so proud of myself I’ve never been so determined to achieve my goal of buying my first car with no help. but can I really save when she does that? I feel alone. Stuck. Hurt. I use to cut myself and hate life itself. My mother is selfish and spiteful. Im 20 but I look 15 she treats me like a child. A small child. A slow child because I had a learning disability all through highschool. Which she use to her ability to call me names like ” “Stupid” Slow” “If you can comprehend “ types of things. I want to be a successful black women with a heart of God. I know I’m a SWEET girl ( just ask college officials and highschool teacher) and my mother takes advantage of that. I feel hatred towards her for all that she’s done to me. If i leave her house, I have no where to go. I need her to get back and fourth to work. Even at one point I had two jobs and still going to college. Is there anybody out there who can help me? Is there anybody out there who can console me. My heart is throbbing and my faith is slipping. Can someone hear me out. Donate to me. Give me the word of Jesus. I need it more than ever.