Me and this boy were best friends when I was five and he was seven, then his parents separated and he moved away and we didn’t talk for 10 years. Then last year it knocked on the door and it was him and his dad! And I was so happy and nervous because he was so fucking attractive and I didn’t have the balls to talk to him so I just sat in the bathroom. Then he asked for my Instagram and when he got home he sent me a dm and said that I should post pics and I said no then he asked why, you are so gorgeous and I was like thanks you too and then we talked every single day and he even asked if I wanted to come home to him and cuddle because he was sick like yessss please. But we started talking less and then we just stopped and didn’t talk for like 2 months until I hit him up and he was like why did you message me all of a sudden and then we lost contact again until he hit me up then left me on read since January...

during this whole thing I forced myself to not like him because he is to attractive for me and all his female friends are so much prettier than me and I am too scared to be in a relationship but I really like him and I have liked him since we were kids and we have this connection when we talk, or when we used to talk. Our conversations just flow and I feel like a 12 year old girl when I think of him. Literally my whole family ships us and wants me to date him.

And I constantly imagine what it would be like if we dated because I know that he would make me so much more happy but it just sounds to good to be true because he is a 9 and I’m strong a 1.5, maybe a 2 on a good day. What should I do????