My dream has always been to be a SAHM, yet I fear it may not be possible. I make twice as much as my fiancee and am the bread winner in the house. My job also offers incredible benefits including 401k and incredible health insurance. My fiancee also wants me to stay home but I fear we can't afford it.

We could get by on his salary, but barely. Our bills would be paid but we could never afford an emergency and we would have terrible health insurance.

As badly as I want to fulfill my dreams and raise our daughter I'm more afraid of us having the electric cut off or getting stuck in debt trying to survive.

I'm not sure if I'm looking for advice or someone to just hear me out. The thought of leaving my daughter to be raised by a stranger breaks my heart. I sometimes work 12 hour days and fear coming home and not even seeing my daughter awake that day. I wish I wasn't more successful than my fiancee and I wish he was willing to be a SAHD.