So, me and my husband had been together for 4 years, got married on our 3 year anniversary, but then I left back in October and moved out to Colorado, we were in Minnesota, and he went back to Texas.

A couple months after moving out here, I kinda went wild and did not care about anything and kinda became homeless for a lil while; I had a place to sleep, eat, and shower with a roof, but it wasn't MY place, so not TOTALLY homeless. I did that for about 2 months, and then after I did what I wanted, I started to get my shit back together and now have an apartment that me and my sis are about to move into in a couple days. But I started to realize that, I don't want to have to find someone new to explain my entire life to, and how I had never stopped loving my husband, and that I wanted to start over, but didn't know how he felt.

So I texted him a few nights ago, and we texted for about 4 hours, and then he called me for another 2 and a 1/2 hours. And it felt really good talking to him and hearing his voice again. And we have been talking everyday since then.

I have come to realize that, I needed to leave in order to act like a child, and I did. And he needed me to leave so he could get his shit together instead of being the child.

A couple days after that, I asked him how he felt about starting over, and ik he was gonna say it, but he said he needed to think about it for a while. And we realized we found each other too early and how we happened to fast and didn't get to be the teenagers we needed to be.

Last night we were talking and he told me he did want to start over, but low-key at first.

I'm really happy he agreed to start over because we both want to be stoner lovers but only with each other, and I realized I don't want anyone else's baby except his. But it's really hard because he's in Texas and I'm in Colorado, and I fucking miss him and I constantly want to tell him I love him, but I also feel like he should be allowed to say it when he's ready, even though ik he still loves me too.

Anyway, if you get this far, thanks for reading about my daily issue.