My husband and I have a soon to be 6 year old loving boy. And a year ago we started talking about having another baby. My son has been asking to be a big brother for quiet some time now. Last year (2018) in November I found out I was expecting. We were having unsafe sex but we were not really timing and trying to get pregnant just yet. We both agree to just leave in God’s hand. So surprisingly I got pregnant at some point. We were all very happy! But our happiness did not last long. After a week of confirming that I was in fact pregnant, I started having a brown like discharge. It started very light and then it got heavier. In thanksgiving day, I decided to go to the emergency room. They did a vaginal ultrasound and found my transvaginal sac, but it was empty. I have always had irregular periods so they said maybe you are still very early in your pregnancy, in a week you should take another ultrasound to see if a yolk has appeared. So I was diagnosed with threatened miscarriage. Hearing the word miscarriage and hearing that the sac was empty was the worst. But there is always that little hint of faith. I went to get a second ultrasound and the sac appeared still empty. In the process of implantation the embryo did not attach. Why? Don’t know? So then they told me I had a pending miscarriage. They told me I had two options, take medicine to speed up the process or wait for my body to take its course naturally. I decided to wait for it to happen on its own. It was the longest pending miscarriage and emotionally and physically hard. But about two weeks later a day before my birthday my miscarriage took place. I bleed so much I had to go to the emergency room. It was a very sad and difficult time. I am glad my husband was always by my side. They told me I had a complete miscarriage. I bleed for about four weeks and then had my first normal period in January 25. My husband and I have been having unprotected sex and both agreed that if it happens it happens and if it doesn’t then we will keep trying. It is now March, according to the app I was suppose to get my period today. I have been feeling similar things that I felt last time I was pregnant. Very tire and drained, very light cramping sensation in my lower abdomen and in my lower back. I am peeing very frequently, I am getting heartburn, I am very bloated and gassy. I had one last pregnancy test from my previous kit from when I was pregnant last. I had a gut feeling so I took it last Monday. It came out positive. I felt very nervous, hot, scared, I felt like crying. I have mix emotions. We truly wish and hope for this baby with all our heart. But I am scare to go through another miscarriage. I am really trying hard to be positive and not stress. I don’t want to celebrate just yet until I hear a heart beat and see my baby and make sure that this time everything is ok. I took a second test this morning and it came out POSITIVE! I have an appointment on the 14th. So all I can do is wait and allow time to take its course. Which is one of the hardest things to do. They say that after every storm there is sunlight and a rainbow. I pray and hope to God that we get our rainbow baby. I just wanted to share my story and let everyone know that there is always hope. I will update on my story. Have a bless and wonderful day!