The disappointment is real!

Been trying to conceive for 3 yrs, Ive tried a lot of things and ivf is not an option obviously because i don’t have 10,000 dollars to spare with only having a 50% chance of it working. Every month i think is the one and is not. And this makes me want to leave my relationship i feel like theres so much that i want and nothing is happening, i want to get married and he doesn’t pop the question i want a baby and its not happening, I’m 28 yrs old and the clock is ticking. I tried to face the fact that i might be one of the women that doesn’t get to have a kid, and ends up alone. But i want a family of my own so bad it hurts. And the more i say i don’t care deep inside i do! And yes I know gods timing is always right but damn is taking a really long time. The worst feeling is to not have control of something you want so bad. Well thats enough venting 😏