Depression

Depression is real. Every last cell in my body aches, I'm tired, everything feels dark. I dont feel an ounce of hope or happiness. I feel alone and invisible. I've struggled with depression off and on for a long time, right now it's being brought on by my relationship. The infamous line came out of his mouth last night, " I just need some space" if you have ever been in a relationship where someone said that or you said that to them, then you know what that means 9 times out of 10. How do you give someone space that you live with? Do you still say goodmorning and goodnight? Do you kiss them and say bye as you are leaving....when that alone has been the only real interaction between you two for what feels like the past week. I just feel like I'm in the way. He is dealing with his sons mother as they just went to court last week for visitation arrangements so I understand he has stuff going on...but last night i felt the need to actually take myself to the hospital because i couldn't bare to stay in this home alone all night, he works overnights. He didnt even care, no hug, no i love you, no nothing. I ended up finding my phone and calling a good friend just to talk myself down enough to go to sleep...This is the lowest depression I've felt in a long time. I dont know how to deal.😞😞😞😞😞😞 I am not on any meds for depression, I have brought it up to my dr and the only thing she did was put me on name brand thyroid med and find out that I have a vitamin d deficiency... I guess maybe I actually need some real help.