This whole TTC thing is a bunch of crap. My whole life I avoided pregnancy like the plague because “god forbid I get knocked up!” Now I can’t even get pregnant when I’m freaking trying. I’m mainly writing this because I just need to do something to release negative energy.

None of this is fair. And I can’t even think about it not being fair because then a voice in the back of my head goes “Well, life isn’t fair.” No shit.

I’m just so tired of seeing people on TTC #2 already when I can’t even seem to get pregnant.

Oh but I got pregnant once (ended in missed miscarriage) so I can do it again right?

My doctors have thoroughly checked me out and have not found PCOS or Endometriosis or anything affecting my fertility aside from a 40 day cycle.

I’m so discouraged.

I took a test at 11 dpo and it’s negative again which isn’t surprising. Even though this “pms” or whatever it is, is different than usual.

To those saying it’s annoying for people saying they are out: you know what’s really annoying? GETTING NEGATIVES EVERY DAMN MONTH.

That’s why people say “I’m out” because they feel so discouraged and hopeless of ever getting a positive and maybe writing about it to a group of women helps them.