I do not have a bad life, I know this. I just want it to end. I’m over feeling empty, and alone. I’m married and have 2 kids but I feel alone...

The only reason I haven’t killed myself is because of the kids. That doesn’t change that I want to die most of the time. I think about it more then I should. I think about how I would do it. I’m always feeling so alone, I feel like my family and friends don’t think about me, as in coming to see me or invite me to go do things with them. I really don’t think I have real friends.

I’m starting to get used to it and not wanting to see anyone, but if I see someone I just put on a smile and try to hurry up and go home.

I want to be done but I want to see my kids grow up. I don’t want to feel this way anymore!