Can y’all say a prayer for me?

I haven’t been close with god my whole life . I think some bad situations I was in growing up in made me resent him and not understand . Also a failed marriage made me think he was out to get me . I know that’s not the case but I still haven’t been very close with god. I also don’t particularly believe in the Bible. Maybe I just don’t understand certain things but I also feel like our god wouldn’t be so judgy.... I do believe there is a higher power (god) and angels are real. I’m currently remarried and have been diagnosed with pcos . I’m at the lowest of my life I’ve been trying to have a child for 3 years. I’m currently on femera. My 4th cycle . I give in . I can’t do everything on my own. I need a miracle . I need god to help me on this journey. . Please pray for me . Please pray for my journey to god and please pray for me to fall pregnant thank you so much