Another loss

Ka

Well it's 322am and we just got home from the hospital. I'm still in pain physically and emotionally. This is our 4th. 1 every year since 2016. I thought this one would stick since I haven't been this far along in any of the others. 8 weeks. I'm glad that I didn't tell anyone. I'm in my head right now, wondering why I can't carry. I can get pregnant and have 1 son but why does this keep happening. I'm so confused just like every other loss before. About to lay down and try to sleep.