I’ve lived with anxiety my entire adult life but since having my son it’s been so much worse. We live about 40 minutes away from any family so we don’t have people come visit very often. My mom always wants to come and get my son for the day to give me a break especially now that I’m pregnant.

I’m always super grateful and of course want her to be close with her grandson but she always wants to take him back to her house and I’m not comfortable with him driving anywhere with anyone else let alone that far. But I also feel like I’m being unfair.

I feel guilty telling her to please stay around here like the park or something or use my house and I can go out for a bit. But being 25 weeks pregnant I don’t want to make that trip down and back to drop him off. Especially since it kind of defeats the purpose which is to give me a break.

Just not sure if this feeling of unease when he’s not around or when I know he’s in the car with someone else will ever go away or if I’ll be an anxious mess of a mother forever. 😓