What should I do?

Aria • 15 - pansexual 🏳️‍🌈

My uncle just died and his funeral is on Friday. I want to go to respect him but funerals literally make me lose my mind. I get extremely hysterical and get panic attacks. Mostly from the viewings which is what he’s having. My older sister said that maybe I shouldn’t go. I don’t knowwww