I know what to do, but..

So a couple of days ago my boyfriend and I had a couple of drinks and then got into a petty ass argument. Long story short he got super pissed off and started elbowing my passengers side window and pretty much busted it out. He then got even more pissed off saying how we shouldn’t drink and how we shouldn’t argue and basically not taking any kind of responsibility

for what he did so I bounced. I’m just so lost now. We would have been together for a year in two weeks. My hearts broken and he keeps texting me telling me he’s going to try so hard and do whatever it takes to fix our relationship and I do want to forgive and believe him but I just don’t know if I would have any kind of self respect left for myself if I did. I’m just heartbroken, y’all.