So if this gets long I’m sorry going to try to keep it short. We miscarried April last year. The rest of the year was spent mourning and fighting depression. Our lives have shifted and hubby has a better job so we quit preventing-but still not trying. Well we had sex unprotected about four days before I’m should have ovulated. I thought I was doing okay but now that there is a chance we could be my emotions are everywhere. I want to be pregnant. I don’t want to be pregnant. I’m terrified that I am but I don’t want to say I don’t because having another miscarriage would kill me... also if we are it’s the same timeline as the one we lost-the one we lost was due the day after thanksgiving and if we are pregnant now they would be due two days before thanksgiving...

I still have a few weeks to wait before I know if we are or not but struggling to put aside the anxiety and fear. And once again it seems like everywhere I look are heavily pregnant women and newborns... I just thought I’d put it out there in case anyone else is more worried than excited at the initial idea of being pregnant even though you want to have another one.