How emotional are you?

Ok. To preface this, I need to explain first, that I feel like Jekyll and Hyde the week leading up to my period. I will feel ok, for the most part, and then one tiny thing will send me into this deep chasm, with OVERWHELMING feelings of despair, anger, and sadness. In those moments, there is nothing my fiancé can say or do, (or anyone for that matter) to make me feel better. The worst part is that I absolutely know, in my head, that whatever it was that set me off, is completely ridiculous and SHOULD NOT warrant that kind of response. But there is nothing I can do to NOT feel this way, nothing I can do to stop from sobbing uncontrollably or feel completely enraged. When I try to explain what I’m feeling, the only sentence that comes to my head, is that I feel crazy, like I am losing complete control. The weirdest part is that, as soon as my period starts, Im completely fine, it all goes away and I am able to control my emotions. But then I have to deal with the emotional strains from the week before (usually strain that I have put my sweet fiancé through). I cannot stand it anymore, and I feel very alone and misunderstood.

I feel like this controls an entire week of my life every month and I’m very, very tired of it. I don’t feel like it’s normal that my life should be interrupted in this way...

I plan on seeing a doctor because this is affecting me so greatly, and I am not currently on birth control...but I guess my main question for any ladies out there...does anyone feel this way too? Does anyone feel completely not themselves the week before their period? Do you ever feel completely out of control? Does this week cause serious strain in your work life or personal life?

Thanks so much❤️

Signed,

A tired, fed up 22yr old ❤️