Hi everyone. So I'm in a long distance relationship with my partner, he's in London, I'm in Plymouth (England) so it's a good 4 hours on the train. Luckily he comes to visit fairly regularly. I also have an anxiety disorder, which makes it exceedingly difficult, if not impossible for me to function when I'm physically away from him. It feels like every time he goes back to London it gets harder to deal with, but I've still got a year and a half of uni left in Plymouth before we can move in together, and idk how to emphasise enough just how difficult I find the long distance. Everything from getting nervous to see him because I've been feeling so terrible, arguing with him loads because we're both just stressed and missing eachother, being terrified all the way through his visit for when he'll inevitably have to get on his train and go back again. I hate it so much, it's at the point where I just feel this constant stream of numbness when he's in London and I'm in Plymouth, which isn't helped by the fact that I really fucking hate uni. Sometimes (quite regularly of recent) by the time he comes to visit, I've managed to convince myself that the relationship doesn't exist, and it's something I've made up in my head to stop myself from being sad. Then there's the not having anything to say. I've known him so long, we know literally everything about eachother, and some nights we just don't have anything at all we can say to eachother, so we don't talk... but with long distance, talking is all you have. When I'm physically away from him I feel like a different person, and I feel unworthy of his time or attention when I'm far away. I've tried to tell him but I just don't feel like he really gets it. It SUCKS. I'm having the hardest fucking time of it. I feel like a terrible girlfriend, I worry, I panic, I get mad, I cry, I say I don't want to lose him... And then I do it all again. Let me know if you feel me or you have advice or a nice picture of a cat or something x