You played with my heart. You played with my feelings and made me believe you were worth giving a second chance to. I forgave you and still decided everytime to still be with you despite all your screw ups.I forgave you when you were confused about how you felt about me. I forgave you when you made me feel like second best. I forgave you everytime you made those jokes about cheating on me despite everytime you said it really really hurt me. I guess you never really changed at all. All I ever did was love you and you broke me. Where was the guy who was my Rock and my savior when I needed him. You stopped calling and texting me for 6 weeks without an explanation of why. Where were you when I cried myself to sleep for days. Where were you when I started to have nightmares every single night and I couldn't sleep and I needed you most. Where was the guy that once said his heart belonged to me and all his love belonged to me when I needed him. Where were you while I was crying me out when I found out one of my family members has cancer. I love you still and that is a big mistake because I don't know if I'll ever get over you but I will try to move on from you because I know someday I will meet someone who truly loves me.