I really hate this

I might be pregnant again and that terrifies me. Last time I was pregnant I miscarried and now, if I am, I'm in danger of having an ectopic pregnancy.

I spoke to my partner a little to get his thoughts and he's just excited at the thought of having one of our own. With how things are, I think I would probably have to abort the baby and that's also so terrifying.

Guys, I really hope I'm not, I don't want another miscarriage or to need to abort my baby. Need to take one more test to find out if I am.