im 5 months postpartum.

Getting really annoyed with bodycon dresses and my boyfriend. He is so insecure that he whether me look like fat sloppy troll then to wear makeup, shapewear (temporary), or hair extensions.

He had a bad experience with a girl who did this to him but it’s not my fucking fault you couldn’t tell it wasn’t real. That’s what he gets for doing anything just to get to her body.

I wore makeup all the time before and it gave me confidence and made me feel more beautiful. Never needed shapewear until now. I’m natural so sometimes my hair can get a little bushy and wild.

I was okay with the overweight for now but he picks at me. I’m even on bc just so we don’t have to use condoms for him! my weight was falling off but then bam bc weight gain. 😡

I didn’t wear compression for postpartum because he doesn’t believe in it and thinks it’s fake. But yet!! Always drooling over these other women who have nice bodies and obviously wear waist trainers and slim belts. And or had work done.

Makeup and fake hair too. 😡

So now my stomach bloats out like I’m still pregnant. 🙄 it’s hard for me to even find time to work out and all he says is run. Run. Run. I can run but because of my weight it’s a lot on my knees(they are really bad) and ankles. Currently carrying around 50 extra pounds. Before him maybe 15. So, it’s best I use a tread mill. Which he has a problem with gyms too.

This man suggested I go running at 5am in the morning. We live outside of town off a highway. 5 miles from state border., no street lights. Who the fuck is about to do that?

Then he thinks I can eat whatever and still lose weight. No I cannot have pasta 5 times a week. 😡

With my body type I cannot not eat and lose weight. Cause I will gain weight. I can’t just run for workout because my body will just gain muscles. I cannot Keto diet because I need carbs and fruits and vegetables. I can fit the same size clothes BUT my body is still holding an extra 30 pounds for some reason. So, the only thing I can think of is calorie deficient and or just say

Ima lose the weight how I want because I wasn’t this overweight when we started dating so obviously something was working. Treadmill running, weight training, Zumba, and Pilates.

we are suppose to go to the beach at the end of the month but he has ruined all the little confidence I had. I don’t even want to wear a swimsuit anymore. Not even a one piece. I guess I’ll go in shorts and a t shirt.

So my question. Finally! I know. How long did it take you to lose your baby weight and or get your body back? Did you have this problem with your so?