I am emotion.

Scared of labor. Tired beyond belief. Super excited. Anxious as hell. Want to see my baby now. Want to enjoy my husband as just us two. Terrified of the upcoming lack of sleep, while already so tired now. Not sure what to expect, or how to prepare. Feeling like I have no time at all, and all the time in the world. Feel like this baby will never come out and I will never feel good again. Worried about my ugly body and the aftermath. Both confident that surely being a mom isn’t that bad and I will do great, and terrified about what I’m getting myself into and who misconceptions I have. Scared of other people hurting or getting my baby sick. Missing the person I was and what I used to like, worried she won’t return, and feeling guilty that I’m not cherishing my time left pregnant. In pain all the time, but wondering if I will be in so much more pain after birth.

I feel like so much uncertainty will be solved by just going into labor. My head hurts.