I’m having my first c section tomorrow at noon. I know plenty of moms out there handle c sections like a champ but they’ve decided (over dramatically) that I shouldn’t have an epidural due to a brain malformation that I have despite the fact that I’ve had it all my life and given birth with an epidural safely twice. So they’re knocking me out completely. I’m very stressed about the fact that my daughter will not see anyone in her family until who knows when, that my husband can’t be in the OR with us and that I have no idea how long I’ll be out so not only will I possibly not realize what happened when I wake up, she may be 4-5 hours old by the time I actually understand life again. I’m having a really hard time wrapping my head around all this and I just want to get it over with. I’m so scared. 😩