I had a miscarriage at 14 weeks. It was one of the worst experiences I have ever had. I was so excited me and my husband had been trying for 4 years. This miscarriage literally ripped apart my marriage, we were separated living separate and being so hateful to each other. But this man was my everything. We both finally realized it. But during this whole time I gained more and more weight, and weighed more then I ever had in my life. I thought about death all the time. I hated life. Me and my husband started working though all of our pain, eating better and started going to the gym. And in less then a year it’s crazy to be able to say I have lost 100 LBS! I feel a million times better. I haven’t been this healthy in a very very long time!

I still am waiting for that positive. But I also am terrified to take any tests. Those negatives hurt so bad!! 🤞🤞🤞