I stopped my BC and I feel bad about it

I stopped it last night and was only a day into it. I’m terrified of these pills. The main artery in my head is swollen so it causes the worst headaches. I need surgery now to get the swelling released but I’m going to suffer from these horrible migraines due to that. I took the pill one day woke up the next morning with a headache, I haven’t had a headache in about 4 days and bam . I’m terrified of headaches. Yes I understand it’s just headaches but I don’t just get headaches I get the worst migraines and I can’t miss any work. I’m on so much medicine right now I just choose to wait. Wait to take BC when I’m off this medicine for my artery. And wait till after all my procedures because all these pills have different side effects and i feel like I’m getting beat up by my own body.

My doctor is probably going to kill me knowing I just took one pill and put it down but I’m scared. I never had a good experience with BC side effects. And my fiancé uses protection. My mom even told me to just sit it in the back for now and focus on everything else. But watch my ass get pregnant 3 months before my damn wedding.

Knowing I just took one. Within the next couple months when everything is done will I be able to start back with that pack knowing just one is missing or no? Have to refill a pack. Like I want to be on BC but at the moment like I said I’m on so much medication due to this artery thing and also having a few procedures coming up it’s to much on my body I feel like but I should be okay within the next couple months to try again and see how it truly affects me.

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