Home alone.. instead of letting my suicidal depression drown me so I attempt again.. I drew over my attempts from almost a month ago.

I’ve always battled with this. I never cut just to cut. The few times in my life I have cut its with the intent to die. A friend came over and stopped me. Even after he took the blades away I tried to down prescription pills also.

I am on medication again.. for depression and anxiety. I did set up an appointment for a therapist again. Money is so tight and idk how I’m gona afford this stuff but I’ll try.

If you struggle with cutting... draw on yourself. Draw pretty things you love or words to inspire you.. or like I also did I just scribbled in places. Just keep doing that over and over again.

For those with suicidal depression. Just try to make it another day. Set the goal for next week. Then when it comes extend it another week.. maybe see if you can make it a month after that.. then another month. Buy “to do” list with boxes on them. Write down things to do around the house and cross 2 off a day. I feel better crossing that box off even if there’s still lots more to do. Make sure you take care of your mental health if you’re not already. Go see a therapist, they can also recommend if medication would be helpful or not. When alone listen to podcast, find different ones to keep your mind occupied. Buy new books.. buy adult coloring books. When the weather is decent enough go find a trail in the woods and walk it... it’s so peaceful.

I decided I can’t live like this. I had to choose to live or die for good. I choose to live. So I’m fighting to live... fight with me if you’re struggling also.