Idk what to think anymore

w • Baby #1 - born 08.28.17 Baby #2 born 03.24.21

I totally feel like just shutting down. We know our bodies better than anyone and my body has been acting different the last couple days. I'm 9-10 dpo and I've tested 3 times and all negative. I've been pregnant once before but I had zero symptoms before pregnancy and during my whole pregnancy. So I'm kind of basing it on stuff you all have posted. I'm praying for some sort of miracle but who knows.